I Wasn’t Expecting That!

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Scandinavian Architecture in Norway (I think)

I had to see one of the GPs in our health practice, this week. Unusually, it wasn’t the wonderful Dr A but another of the doctors to whom he had referred me for a particular problem. In connection with that problem, she and I talked about fatigue and Fibromyalgia in general. As we were nearing the end of the consultation, I asked her about sore throats. I mentioned that several times recently I had had a very sore throat, although it hadn’t developed beyond the soreness. I said I wondered if it might be to do with the Fibromyalgia as, about 20 years ago, I regularly used to get a sore throat and lose my voice, sometimes for a month or more, due to stress. Dr B said she wasn’t aware of it being a symptom of Fibro but, as Fibro can be reactive to stress, it may well be connected. Nothing more was said about it.

Later in the week, I was reading this page, which I had linked through to from another page on that website.

Now, I don’t tend to read much about Fibromyalgia as, early in my Fibro journey, I found that the information I was reading was depressing me. I read about all sorts of symptoms that I didn’t have (at that stage, the only symptom I realised I had was fatigue – huge great bucketloads of it!) and they weren’t very nice! In fact, I’d go so far as to say that they looked a bit unfriendly, or even downright nasty! I made the decision there and then not to read about Fibro unless I began having a new symptom. If and when that happened, I could just do a quick check that it was, indeed, part of that joyful pakage otherwise known as Fibromyalgia, then not read any more. And that’s what I have done. Mind you, I hadn’t thought to look at whether a sore throat might be connected – that only occurred to me when I was talking with Dr B.

Oops, sorry, I went off at a bit of a tangent there.

As I said, I was reading that page later in the week and I saw that Sore Throat is listed as a symptom of Chronic Fatigue Syndrome (otherwise known as CFS or ME).

Ting-a-ling.

I looked through the list of symptoms again and saw “adrenal stress (low stress tolerance)”.

Definitely ting-a-ling.

My ability to cope with stress has all but disappeared. It had been pretty ropey before the Fibro diagnosis, but now it is very notable by its absence. I may have misconstrued the phrase ‘adrenal stress’ but I have made a note for myself to speak to the wonderful Dr A about it. I’m not sure if being given a diagnosis of CFS/ME would make any difference but, somehow, I think it would feel tidier to know, one way or the other. There would be a place to cross-reference things in my brain’s internal filing system.

I hadn’t expected that I CFS/ME might be involved. I think I had avoided even thinking about any possible connection as it seemed a bit of a cliché and I didn’t, and still don’t, want to be a cliché. I already feel like a bit of one because I am an older woman who “suffers with her nerves” and I certainly don’t want to add to that feeling. However being able to say either “Yes, it is” or “No, it isn’t” would allow me to know where I stand… or, rather, where I collapse in a heap – very elegantly, of course! Ha ha ha.

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Are You Still Feeling Tired?

I received a telephone call yesterday afternoon enquiring how the appointment with my GP had gone. I gave a quick precis then came The Question…

“Are you still feeling tired?”

The person on the other end of the telephone had been very concerned when the tiredness I had been feeling dragged on after the chest infection had cleared up in September. She had urged me to consult my GP and, when he could give no quick answers, became quite annoyed on my behalf. However, as you nay have already guessed from the question above, she doesn’t understand that the tiredness I feel is a symptom of the Fibromyalgia. I have tried to explain it to her, but without success. She has seen me dozing off in a chair because of it and had to wait for me when I was late because I fell asleep for two hours when I should have been on my way to see her: but still she doesn’t understand. Instead, I am asked The Question in what feels like an accusatory tone.

I think that, sometimes, people don’t hear or don’t understand because they don’t want to, or can’t allow themselves to. That’s OK, it’s their choice, but what about the people on the other side of it? The ones who are being asked The Question?